Goodbye 2023. Hello, Possibility?

Somehow, against all odds, I have made it to the end of another year. If you're reading this, that means you have too. That is an accomplishment, considering the chaotic state of the world surrounding us. I'd say getting to this point in time is something pretty remarkable. I'm taking whatever little wins I can…

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So. It's nearly the end of September. September. Seriously. Where have the days gone? I find myself perplexed about this current situation. I am no farther along than I was this time last year, in fact, I may be more behind in the grand scheme of things. That's what I am still trying to figure…

April Showers Bring Happiness?

Things just feel different these days. I can't quite put my finger on it, there is something in the air. A lightness that has been missing, something out there to grasp onto, and bring back to life. It's as though the past few months, perhaps even longer, are finally finding some peace of mind. Instead…

Sleep Deprivation and Rainbows

This week has been one of the longest, hellish weeks I've had in a while (and that's saying something). Lately, it feels as though chaos is permanently attached to me no matter where I go. When things are finally feeling right with the world, there is always something that comes along and knocks me back…

Rewinding Optional

Oh, look. Here we are in another month, another year, another day. And so on and so forth. Do I have my 'act' together? Is there a big difference between now and who I was a year ago? I don't know if I have the answer to that question. I'd like to think that I…

New Year. Old Problems.

Wouldn't it be lovely if at the stroke of midnight on New Year's that all the problems, strife, and conundrums would reset and there would be a clean slate to work from? A new beginning is made possible by putting up with one catastrophe after another when in reality it doesn't end in the blink…

The Little Train That Could Not

I have no steam. No get up and go. Nothing is able to propel me up this impossibly steep hill. I try to recollect myself and salvage the energy that has seeped away into the nothingness, but it has a mind of its own. Powerless to fight, it overwhelms me and I have to relinquish…

A Writer’s Conundrum

Have you ever been so inspired by an idea that it's constantly gnawing at the back of your mind until you're able to find some way to release it? It consumes you until you are able to put pen to paper, or fingers to the keyboard. These are the ideas that keep striking me at…

The Frenzy and the Beast

My mind is going off on a constant, rapid succession of thoughts. There are ideas dancing in my head, so many well-meaning and possible steps in a different direction. That's usually how it is though, most of the time those ideas never see the light of day. I want to change that and actually DO…

Summer of Madness

I don't know whether I am coming or going these days. There are some days that leave me questioning if I am losing my position in life or my direction. It feels as though I am constantly on the verge of going over the edge, freefalling into the abyss of my own making. When I…

The Grand Splendor of Nothingness

It's been a little while. Not as long as my last hiatus mind you, but it's been well over a month. Looking back at the hellish landscape that I just came from, I'm thankful that it's almost over. There has been an over abundance of time to think and reflect, which isn't always a positive…

Small Steps. Big Feats.

I try not to plan too far ahead. Instead, I have learned to measure my life in moments, minutes really. Expectations are lower, and there is little room for disappointment when ideas or grand schemes don't turn out quite the way it was initially envisioned. This is what many call "rolling with the punches", and…